I am fed-up.
I gained weight during the pandemic, and it seems like the only thing I lost during that time was my dam mind.
I am struggling to find a routine again, I am struggling to see what I should eat, and I am FED-UP with dieting.
I have done it all at this point.
One thing I told myself I was not going to do was to go on any diet pills, I was on them for years, and they did not work.
I rememebred hearing how diets don’t work. I got the point of that statment.
We seem to wait for the diet to end only to indulge with something that was off limits.
They said “change your life style”, “habit is the key”,”do more cardio” etc you get the point.
I am here to tell you that with years of reading behind me on the human mind and behaviour, changing your mindset when it comes to eating is HARD and has its challenges.
I think I am most fed-up with how I speak to myself concerning my weight and body. I don’t give myself any credit for the hard work over the years; I don’t look at my body and think anything positive. I am most certainly looking at my body and judging it as I do with other people in my head.
I want to give up on dieting
Gosh, if there ever was a time all women of all ages were going to feel pressure to look and act a certain was is NOW.
I am so confused with the Body Positivity movement. I was happy at first to see women in plus size having fun, being happy and confident.
My thoughts changed when I noticed that some people were not supportive of a plus-size woman losing weight or getting healthy. Like, WTF is that.
But for the most part, I see how social media is helping and making it a platform to add so much pressure on us to look and feel a certain way.
9 out of 10 times I go onto social media, I always feel like “I am not enough” I am human, and I compare myself.
I don’t use social media like I used to; I barely post pics of myself. My puppy has taken over my Instagram.
When you’re dealing with body shaming issues, social media is not the place to be.
NO MORE DIETS
I feel like I have run a marathon when I think about my DIETING life.
I think I have pushed so hard on my dieting life more than any other thing in my life; I have let the number on the scale determine if I was going to have a bad week or not. I have allowed diets to take money from me. Cause each new diet comes with a new tool for the kitchen and wastage from not using the things I said I was going to cook.
I had gained about 8lbs on my last trip, where I gave up smoking and got covid, but my gosh. I am tired of it all. Thinking about a F*cking number all the time in my head, or even denying myself a meal cause sometimes starvation works.
I can’t do this to my body anymore. I am smart enough to know what foods are good and what foods are wrong, I know I need to drink more water, I know I need to work out in the mornings before work, I know my knee is Bad, and I have to be more understanding that every day I will be able to work out, I know that I have to love and accept where I am.
Loving where I am with my body and weight will require me not to be on a diet for a very long time.
Did diets work for you ?.